This is not me, this is Gackt Camui. Yes, it's a "he".
I'm more beautiful and younger than him.
I'm more beautiful and younger than him.
Feminine guy?
I am unfortunate to be born with feminine looks. People always mistake me for a girl. And when they find out that I'm a guy, they have this strange expression on their faces which clearly reflects one question - am I gay?
Answer: No
I am not gay, and I don't think I'm heterosexual either. I have never experienced serious romantic interest in any gender, be it female, male or queer. And I don't think I will ever develop one. I am not capable of feeling what other people are feeling, you get me?
I may have an I.Q level of 139, but my emotional quotient level is zero. I guess what my parents say about me being heartless and reckless is right; I don't seem to understand what other people around me are thinking or feeling. Everyone looks so two-dimensional, like the sketches in my drawing pad.
My worst memory of going to high school was having to play a girl in the school play. It was an all-boys school, so somebody had to do it (in my case, I was put under duress by the seniors). The attention I received after that play was, well... let's just say that I'm glad I took the 'O' Levels and got myself into the university early.
But my hell was far from over. I had a scary experience at the campus hostel which made me decide to find my own apartment and live alone since. Then I met a girl who called herself Hikaru, an extreme otaku who kept dragging me to her cosplay club as a random bishie character (her idea, not mine!). One day, we had a quarell and she called me a heartless bishonen because I often frown and refuse to open up to others. I only said "whatever".
Girly eyes. I hate it when people point out I have girly eyes. That's why I wear these thick glasses to hide them. It's so embarassing. I am going to do a cosmetic surgery on them someday.
I read in the Net about a study revealing that women go for feminine guys as better long-term marriage partners. As if. How weird can women go?
I'm okay with brief dates and gifts exchange but only till that far. I don't go over beyond the third date and that's that. Unless I'm comfortable being friends with that person, I'll cut off all connections with her. A reason why I can't remember any one of my cell phone numbers.
I am unfortunate to be born with feminine looks. People always mistake me for a girl. And when they find out that I'm a guy, they have this strange expression on their faces which clearly reflects one question - am I gay?
Answer: No
I am not gay, and I don't think I'm heterosexual either. I have never experienced serious romantic interest in any gender, be it female, male or queer. And I don't think I will ever develop one. I am not capable of feeling what other people are feeling, you get me?
I may have an I.Q level of 139, but my emotional quotient level is zero. I guess what my parents say about me being heartless and reckless is right; I don't seem to understand what other people around me are thinking or feeling. Everyone looks so two-dimensional, like the sketches in my drawing pad.
My worst memory of going to high school was having to play a girl in the school play. It was an all-boys school, so somebody had to do it (in my case, I was put under duress by the seniors). The attention I received after that play was, well... let's just say that I'm glad I took the 'O' Levels and got myself into the university early.
Wearing girls' clothes can be both exciting and traumatic at the same time.
I still can't figure out why some skirts have zippers at the front.
I still can't figure out why some skirts have zippers at the front.
But my hell was far from over. I had a scary experience at the campus hostel which made me decide to find my own apartment and live alone since. Then I met a girl who called herself Hikaru, an extreme otaku who kept dragging me to her cosplay club as a random bishie character (her idea, not mine!). One day, we had a quarell and she called me a heartless bishonen because I often frown and refuse to open up to others. I only said "whatever".
Sorry, you are not gonna catch me cosplaying like this nowadays anymore.
Now put down that camera!
Now put down that camera!
Girly eyes. I hate it when people point out I have girly eyes. That's why I wear these thick glasses to hide them. It's so embarassing. I am going to do a cosmetic surgery on them someday.
I read in the Net about a study revealing that women go for feminine guys as better long-term marriage partners. As if. How weird can women go?
Nope, marriage just won't work out for Amel.
I'm okay with brief dates and gifts exchange but only till that far. I don't go over beyond the third date and that's that. Unless I'm comfortable being friends with that person, I'll cut off all connections with her. A reason why I can't remember any one of my cell phone numbers.
The thought of being in a relationship that requires life-term commitment just freaks me out. Sharing my bed and Astro tv with someone else? No way, jose'.
And don't think I'll go easy with the kids. I might end up hurting them the same way I have been hurt. What a nightmare.
What, you think I'm socially retarded? Whatever, as far as I am concerned I may only be heartless.
And don't think I'll go easy with the kids. I might end up hurting them the same way I have been hurt. What a nightmare.
What, you think I'm socially retarded? Whatever, as far as I am concerned I may only be heartless.
USO MITAI NA I LOVE YOU - UTADA HIKARU
is playing on my mind today
is playing on my mind today
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